♫ FIRST OF ALL I'D LIKE TO BLAME jaaku FOR MAKING ME NUTS ABOUT ADAM LAMBERT'S SONG "FOR YOUR ENTERTAINMENT". OKAY I DO THINK HE'S SUPERCUTE BUT I DON'T LISTEN TO POP. BUT THIS IS SO CATCHY. OH BABY BABY play count: 33.

♫ I HAVEN'T BEEN TO SCHOOL IN 3 AND A HALF WEEKS. Had my doctor's appointment about my sore throat today, just some pointless infection but it prolonged my vacation until this Thursday. YEAAAAAHHHHHH oh damn this cough is horrible :[

♫ SNOWFLAKE COOKIE BOMBARDMENT.

♫ WELL I'M ABOUT TO TURN UP THE HEAT, I'M HERE FOR YOUR ENTERTAINTMENT~ make it STOP.

♫ I have bad luck with guys ): Everyone I meet on L4D who find me interesting are boring as fuck themselves. I got this one guy talking about the WEATHER with me....umm...how nice :1 I'LL BE LONELY FOREVER SOB /wrists haha

♫ OH GOD I GOT MY EXTREME LIMITED EDITION OF THE "GATEWAY MEAT" LAST WEEK, COPY 551 OMG I CAME ; u; The "company" I bought the 12" inch Sideshow piece of sex Imperial Stormtrooper were a bunch of scamming douchebags but I managed to get my money refunded, and now they're either sold out, cost more than $100(not worth it) or don't deliver here. ): Stupid 6000 copy limit.

♫ CAUSE I'M UP EARLY I GET THE WHOLE DAY TO TALK TO MY AWESOME k0n3k0 <3!

♫ escadrilles YOU NEED TO TELL ME HOW THAT HUNT FOR GAY NOVELS WENT. I THINK LEA IS A PRETTY COOL GUY, EH SUGGESTS ME GAY NOVELS AND DOESN'T AFRAID OF ANYTHING.

♫ I'M GOING TO SEE RAMMSTEIN. BEST OF ALL, I'M GOING WITH THE BOY I LIKE :'D what's frustrating is that in April Metallica are giving a concert too and I'm pretty sure I won't be able to afford two tickets at once.

♫ I FELL FOR THE NICK/ELLIS PAIRING FROM LEFT 4 DEAD 2 OH GOD YES. YES. SOMEONE GO DRAW SOME GOOD FANART NOW.

♫ YEAH I'M OPTIMISTIC C: CHRISTMAS IS SOON. NEEDS MORE SNOWFLAKE COOKIES.

FIRST OF ALL THANK YOU GUYS FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES, YOU'RE SO SWEET I LOVE YOU ALL YOU ARE THE BEST F-LIST EVER <3

I didn't do stuff for my birthday because I got sick OTL all the schools in town are quarantined. Thankfully, because of regular flu, although the news of someone beginning to die due to swine flu in Kaunas are unsettling. I should get out less D:

AAAAANYWAY. I ordered myself a 12" Sideshow Imperial Stormtrooper figurine and House of Leaves and the Extreme Limited Edition "The Gateway Meat" DVD, now I'm on pins and needles because I'm worried something will go wrong with shipment because it's not eBay and I'm still paranoid about online stores. HNNNGGGGHHHHHH. The "We are processing your order now." message is intimidating, I'm always expecting them to find something wrong with our address, IT HAS Ž AND Ų AND Š AND ALL THE FANCY CHARACTERS THAT SOME SITES DON'T PROCESS PROPERLY.

I HAVE SOME MONEY LEFT BUT I'M AFRAID THE TICKETS FOR THIS ORGASMIC EVENT ARE GOING TO BE PRICEY SO I BETTER SAVE UP SOME FOR THAT AND NOT GET SOME MORE STAR WARS MERCH TO SATISFY MY NERDY EGO.
OMG OMG OMG OMG RAMMSTEIN *JIZZ*.
I'LL BE HONEST THOUGH
THEIR NEW ALBUM IS TOO...how you say it... overly sexual?, I PREFER THEIR OLDER STUFF BUT WHO CARES
IT'S RAMMSTEIN
TOURING IN GODDAMN VILNIUS
YESSSSSSS
doh, same as last time, I'm not even sure I'm going, but I'm spazzing because of hope

Yep that's all the caps for today C:
Things would have been perfect if not for some guy I met on L4D stalking me. I wouldn't have minded his confessions of eternal love at all if he didn't look like a 40+ year old rapist, plus with a moustache >:U Just kidding, it's amusing.
Yes I'm an extravert when it comes to guys. I'm wrong, but nothing can be done.

Back from my unintended hiatus YEAAAAHHHH~
Hmm let's see. Last Monday I got some food poisoning and, deciding it was just a stomach ache, I took (too much) pills to supposedly ease the pain, which made things worse, so I was rushed to the hospital. Man, the last time I vomited was when I was still in kindergarten and ate too much pickles.

I stayed there for 3 days, being fed concentrated glucose through a tube, feeling terribly dehydrated and beat up because of the tiny bed with a slippery mattress. Thankfully that's all the crappy stuff that happened, the hospital I stayed at is usually a slaughterhouse.
A few years ago they exaggerated my Thyroid gland dysfunction as something deadly if I don't operate, when in reality the operation itself would have been almost fatal. Also the lady I shared the hospital room with told me how, when she was giving birth in that same hospital, she almost died because the nurses didn't know what to do and kept giving her pain medication, and good thing the doctor arrived in time.
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Anyway, after that I was kind of isolated from the Internet, catching up witch school, playing a bit too much L4D and just not feeling like doing anything, I sort of forgot about LJ in the process.
Other than that, life's just as boring as it was. I'm thinking of moving to some private college abroad after this year because I hate this country. Also, fun fact, turns out the exams everyone's scaring us with are not required after all. Thanks for the stress, though. I hate how the schooling system change every other month here or so.

I should have done my math homework and literature essay and politics project, but I did all that's actually needed, an english report, everything else can kindly choke on a dick.
Really sick and tired of all this useless crap, so I'm avoiding people not to accidentally snap at them, so, sorry if it looks like I'm ignoring you on purpose, I'm still in touch with you, f-list c: <3

Hey Internet, Mado here with a professional review of "Paranormal Activity".

The movie wasn't scarier than Blair Witch Project, it was just as terrible as Blair Witch Project, except with ten times the commotion about it.
[insert half of my readers raging at me for mocking that "flawless piece of cinema" here]
When the first reaction comments/videos started coming out I was honestly intrigued since I don't remember a movie having this much of an effect on people. But apparently everyone is either a pansy not having seen anything more unsettling than Lion King, or a troll (mainly trolls, I'd guess, you can't say something is as horrifying as The Exorcist and mean it).
How I waited for a torrent, and I was lucky enough to get a good quality one just a few hours ago, but my excitement was not worth it.
Those who haven't seen it, think Blair Witch, except with nothing happening in a house instead of the woods, minus the compiled 5 minutes of footsteps, flicking lights and shutting doors throughout ~1,4 hrs of the entire thing.

HURR SO SCARY. Movie, I am dissapoint.
TL;DR, steaming piece of shit, why did I waste my time on it.


NOW ON A MORE POSITIVE NOTE.


I'm hyped beyond sane explanations about Left 4 Dead 2 and judging by the previews it's really gonna be something ; u; It's out on the day before my birthday dsfgjadfgjdfjsgbdf AWESOME. I know I'm not gonna like the characters as much, but the "upgraded" Witches and new Infected made me jump off walls in excitement so I'm willing to forget the lack of Louis I'M SO OBSESSED SOB.
I found it ridiculously cute how Witches hang out in groups at Sugar Mill because they like sugar FFFFFFF WHY IS THAT SO ADORABLE <333333 x3 NEED FANART.

My holidays finally started and I know I'm gonna spend them up to the last day playing KOTOR II with unlocked content EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I've been waiting way too long <33333

hhhnnnn I really have no life apart from video games do I, I feel like a retard.

But oh well. STAY CLASSY, F-LIST <3

Oh hey it's been two weeks of complete silence. Well, I've been checking on my updates here and there, sorry if I didn't respond to everyone, but I'll start catching up now that I'm not sick anymore. I don't wanna go back to school after two weeks of wonderful peace with my infection :[

Still nothing big going on here. I decided to take a break from Hetalia, because, no offence, I haven't seen a fanbase this retarded since Naruto. Long story short, the fans ruined the fandom for me. The early community was amazing and half of my f-list is the result of Hetalia friending memes, but now it's just ridiculous as to how serious people are about the series, it's more like they're dependant on it, I mean, sticking it into every aspect of their life? Please.
Sorry if I offended anyone, but as they say, the truth hurts.

IT SNOWED TODAY C: *waves arms around* I love snow, and winter, but I get insanely lazy and sleepy. My total procrastination period is early this year, failure galore.

My life is sooooooo boooooring 8DD I feel kinda envious of people on my f-list who post their experiences every other day and here I am tied to nothing but video games and reading = v=
/wrists

Got tagged by danceswithewoks for the "7 Interests" meme. DID I MENTION I LOVE YOUR USERNAME BY THE WAY BECAUSE I TOTALLY DO.

( Here I ramble about my interests that look awkward altogether. Warning: Tl;DR and my opinions no one cares about xD )

TL;DR. I've had my Physics book open in front of me for three and a half hours and I've only read about two sentences out of it that I'd forgotten already. Guess who's failing her test tommorow C: Wtf is Electromagnetic Induction?
School's pissing me off, do I really need this + high mathematics to apply for Linguistic Studies? :1

GUYS I HAVE A REQUEST. I'd love it if you suggested me some UHMAYZING BUUUUUKS. I mainly read transgressive fiction/detectives/thrillers, but I'm getting tired of reading the same genre all the time and I'm running out of literature, so go ahead and tell me your favorites or something with an unusual plot that's not too deep or philosophical, I'll be ever so grateful :U <3

HEY GUYS GUESS WHAT TIME IT IS.
MEME TIME. Sorry if you've done this alreay, OTL I'm just so slow like that.

Tagged by crimsondream13 C: <3
FIRST: If you've been tagged, you must write your answers in your own LJ and replace any question that you dislike with a new, original question.

SECOND: Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do and don't tag who tagged you.

TAGGING: conartist, danceswithewoks, hautalken, jadeica, madnesshp, umi_no_suzume, milli_licious theamazingfetus

( Answers here :B )

SECOND MEME TIME.

Comment on this post. I will choose seven interests from your profile and you will explain what they mean and why you are interested in them! Post this along with your answers in your own journal so that others can play along.


NOW IT'S BORING LIFE EVENTS TIME.

Nothing's happening. Same routine consising of school, Internet and sleep every day. Oh oh but I decided to apply for Gotheburg University(lawl Sweden) to get myself a degree in translation and communications, and I'll write my admission next year FFFFF I'M SO NERVOUS. CRY. CRYYYY. What makes me lol is that payment for schooling is about 50 euros and paying for rent and other monthly necessities is over 1,000 euros. HURR DURR. As long as it's not me paying, though, I'm okay.

I'm also on a mission to replay older vidya games like Half Life and whatnot, omg such nostalgia ; v;

IN OTHER NEWS. П-П-П-ПИРОЖКИ С КАПУСТОЙ. OMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOM.
idk how they're called in English, but it's cabbage and eggs baked into thin dough, I just had 5 in one go, FEELS GOOD MAN.

This message is brought to you by sleepiness.

HEY HEY GUYS HEY GUESS WHAT. I LOVE YOU ALL. You prolly know that but yeah, just sayin' :3
/generally awesome mood despire having crappy news.
Idk I feel like jumping off walls and hugging everything? REVERSE PMS.

Okay. Okay umm, second week of school is in progress, right? It's crap. First of all, cause our usual school is being renovated and we are temporarily staying at this one building that's probably gonna be taken down soon, it's such a shithole and I'm always paranoid about the ceiling collapsing. IT'S SO OLD, CRACKS EVERYWHERE.

Really though. I understand not having enough money to make major renovations to the building, but honestly, they couldn't collect enough to buy a new friggin map for geography class? The one we have is probably one of those post-war ones where the countries are still marked red as Soviet-occupied and there's two Germanies, and it's been taped together so many times the layers of tape are black from dirt.
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That's just one of the endless little details that make me double facepalm.

The schedule's still incomplete, I know they'll be adding an extra module here and there, and I'm hoping to take Advanced Bio this year again. Too bad Traditions and Customs of English Speaking Countries got cancelled, it was pretty cool. But I have 3 English lessons on Wednesdays alone so I guess that's something. Rock on.

Err...I started smoking again after 3 months. ): Because of stress. And it calms me down almost instantly. OTL fail self, I always go for the easiest solution but not the best one.

Also. Team Fortress 2. I need to play it. I don't know how it happened but I ship Spy/Scout like burning since uhm yesterday and I don't even know the fandom all that well, but THEY'RE CUTE SHUT UP. INCOMING BOMBARDMENT OF GAY FANFIC/FANART.

Yes, note to self: post doodelz sometimes :U

Remember kids, playing Left 4 Dead for 10 hours is bad, mmkay? I totally have the right to say it, not like I played it 4PM - 4AM myself with barely any breaks, nope~
I can't feel my anything. Why is that game so insanely good? It's not even too original and is kind of short, but I love it~ <3
There's still Silent Hill waiting for me. Funny how I always get into something once the commotion's died down, but that's the point. For me, constantly hearing about one thing turns me off from it for a while.

Anyway, I have my schedule for classes which start on Monday, the setup is pretty much crap; one day would be too easy, the other mindrape intense with double everything. I'm gonna fail this year I just know it 8D

I still didn't do much on my sketches so there's no decent fanart to post yet OTL, all there is are some drafts of disamboweled limbs and whatever. That and there's all the anime/manga I need to catch up with that's been lying around for what...months? Not sure what I'm doing with my time but I never get on it.
I'm tired and hungry and don't have anything interesting to mention, just a pointless little update.
I know most of you on my f-list are going through school/college/uni arrangements and all, so best of luck on that, you guys <3

Sup guys, long time no see~ (Not rly, I've only been gone for like a week . n.)

Sorry I haven't commented much on anyone's entries, but I'm trying my best to keep up with what my awesome f-list is up to. Anyway, I'll try to explain why I'm rather quiet, without turning this into a gigantic emo post *snicker*.

1. Writing. I'm actually working on a fanfic and two original novels, it's a huge time consumer. Thankfully there's so much research to get occupied with~.

2. Illustrations. Visual character design, apart from occassional fanarting; I might post some sketches after cleaning them up. I honestly have no idea why I've started drawing so much lately, but my tablet is about to kick the bucket from so much abuse ;A;.

3. Epic Depression ಠ_ಠ. Okay maybe not really, but knowing that school starts in more than a week is making me uhh...what's the word...I dunno...All I wanna do is be alone and sleep, all of a sudden there's no desire to touch my computer at all, just curl up under warm blankets <3. My subconscious is beginning to remember what 3 hours of sleep instead of 9 is like. FFFF. Can't hybernate this season, first serious exams are this year SDFHKSGDFKSGDF NOOO.

4. Sickness. Constant headaches/stuffed nose/weakness/allthatnastycrap from sitting near an open window all night. Apart from physical, my mental health is also questionable, seeing a psychologist and an oncologist ASAP is a must, but I can't afford any of that right now, I'd spent all my money on comics. That last line makes me laugh so hard for some reason, don't ask.

Oh yeah, I finally found some sellers at eBay that don't have stupid shipping restrictions nor outrageous delivery prices and ordered myself some manga and guide books~ Waaaaa so impatient/excited~ x3

And hopefully everyone is doing well :> <3

Guys...I hope you never experience this. Say you want to download a not very widely known TV court show series, find it on your trusty torrent site and download the first couple of series. Thankfully the speed was fast and you get the files in just a few minutes, and when you sit down all excited and begin to watch, past the opening theme you get not the promised lawyers and criminals, but explicit underage porn.
Cause that just happened to me a few minutes ago and I can't find the right words to describe how scarring that was . _.

Unbelievable how there were so much appreciative comments on the files as well. I hate people so much right now, uploading and supporting this kind of thing is just beyond sick, don't even get me started...

( Moar questions; from k0n3k0 <3 )


Other than that, after sitting here for two weeks waiting for it, I finally went to the boat parade yesterday~ I wasn't as thrilled as my dad, nor did I understand anything he had to say about the types and structures, but it beat staying at home. Grabbed a few things at the market, but the biggest souvenir I got is pain from walking for 4 hours 8D

Today I went to this Japanese corner that was set out in the festival, watched georgeous dances and a looooooong tea ceremony, then got my church name Magdalena written in kanji, which had some difficult philosophical meaning about my bright aura, and it looks really pretty 8D

Tommorow I'll be stopping by the market again to get some presents, on Monday I'll finally go home and try to make the best of August, by being productive and working on some novels~ = n= Why so short, summer?

Got this from theamazingfetus, I'm a bit late OTL

Leave me a comment and I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can get to know you better.
Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.
LET ME INTERROGATE YOU WAHAHA

1. What kind of super natural powers you wish you could have? It can be anything, but the ability 'have all powers when ever is most conveinient' is not an option. Neither is unlimited wishes. An why?
Invisibility. No better way to find out about peoples' secrets than sneaking up on them and getting all the info you need.

2. Which word do you cringe at the sound of? (Like some people hate the words pus, moist, lucious, etc.)
There's this russian word "persik", literally meaning "peach", the pronunciation of which makes me think of something slutty and gross. "Moist" is also nasty :1

3. If offered a piece of human flesh, grilled and marinaded to deliciosuness at a party would you eat it?
Hmm, well, if I know it's human flesh to begin with, then no. If I don't, then I'll take a bite, get suspicious about the weird taste and leave it at that xD

4. What are the colors of the walls in your living spaces?
Black and white graffiti-pattern wallpaper in my room, the rest of the apartment is in light brown/cappuccino/sand colors.

5. If you could have any object right now just appear in your hand what would it be?
An ultra-powerful air conditioner/fan/whatever you call it. TOO HOT =A=

I was packing my stuff for the trip tommorow(well, today, it's 5:30 am), and let Kuroshitsuji run on my DVD for background noise. Ofcourse I never finished packing because, even though I've seen the entire series, I kept turning back to read the subtitles again. Then, a sudden strike of inspiration killed my "do it later" plan, so I dug up my tablet from under 2 inches of dust and drew some quick scribbles in Open Canvas :3


Hmm I think I'm one of the few fangirls who prefer Sebas less stuck up in this pairing, even though it's OOC, but oh well, at least I'm not supporting pedophilia. I apologize, I know Sebas/Ciel is sort-of canon, but, umm, DO NOT WANT them THAT way :1.


Even though I haven't drawn in weeks and holding a tablet pen felt completely awkward, I think these turned out okay.
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Mmmhh, for two weeks absolutely nothing's going on, it's the usual "stay up late->sleep in->eat->play video games->repeat" routine, until my family plans so much events at once that I'd have to rip myself apart to do everything.


By Saturday my parents and I need to be in Klaipeda for my aunt and uncle's birthdays. Automatic DO NOT WANT due to a big gathering of people who I don't like, everyone except my grandmother .___.
At first we planned to stay for 10 days, to have a chance to attend this city festival/boat parade thing and do souvenir shopping, but it turns out the fest isn't until the 31st, so we'd have to stay two weeks instead, could be more, since my parents don't wish to drive there and back several times. I was hoping to spend the last half of July and first half of August away from them, not with them *facedesk*.

Ugh, not to mention my aunt will be bringing over her shrieking bundle of drool aka son. In addition to my ongoing pollen allergy, I'll be rewarded with daily headaches and used diaper smell, how lovely~


On top of all that, even if the trip didn't sound as bad, it's still really inconvenient that I'll be away from the city during this specific time. I have to deal with some delayed shipment issues next week, so I'll be an anxcious mess, worrying about arranging it for another time. That, and I won't be able to attend the Devil Stone metal fest in Anyksciai, the opening day is Friday, right when I'll be leaving ;____;

But oh well. Unrelated things:
- I tried playing Lux-Pain, but the emulator isn't strong enough to run it smoothly, the sounds cuts off and everything lags terribly ): *doesn't have a DS*
- My pets are shedding like hell, especially Revan. THERE'S BUNNY FUR EVERYWHERE DFKLHSGDKLF.
- Only thing keeping me sane and happy: GIFT EXCHANGE WITH k0n3k0, I'm insanely excited = w= ♥ KUROSHITSUJI STUFF EEEEE~ ♥♥♥

That's about it, I really hope you guys aren't having such a stressful summer as I am ; 3;

G-gaaaaaawwddd sunburn feels nasty. My hands and face haven't been grilled like this since I was a kid, and I would keep my record if my final school project didn't include 3 hour scenery drawing practice all week. I'm definitely not going out in the sun again tommorow to finish sketching a crappy windmill >:C

I'll be catching up with Mobile Suit Gundam 00/Kuroshitsuji/Code Geass/K-ON!/Hetalia pretty soon~ Ha, not only have I been proven wrong that no anime will interest me much, but I'm pretty sure I'm falling for several pairings in each series <3 Drawing potential plz. Actually makes me wanna go with the goal to sketch daily.

But oh well enough about me, WHAT'S EVERYONE ELSE DOING THIS SUMMER? :D

http://www.devilstone.net/lt/index
DO WANT ಥwಥ

Shiiiiiit I got invited to go a few days ago sdfkjghskdjf sure wish I can make it, but it all depends if I have money and if there's no sudden change of plans.
Too bad I can't really go to the "Let Us Rise On Lightning" fest too see Amon Amarth, cause I'll most likely have finishing projects in school at that time, it's not fair ;_; Nor is the fact there barely are any fests/concerts in this retarded country either way :1


Okay the best part is that I'm done with the important projects for my English class, my final finishing assignment was to review Stephen King's "Pet Sematary"(fantastic book <3) and present it in a short summary and timed speaking. Hopefully that's the last homework task for this semester.
Overall my grades are shit, but I can pass with them anyway so it's cool.


I'm completely out in the end of June and I won't let myself slack around for two months, will certainly do some work on my novels, doodles, etc. Maybe go to Latvia or something and try not to curl up and dehydrate from the heat in the meantime haha~

I don't like posemaniacs.com.
I don't like Mr. T advertising frying pans on TV.
I DON'T LIKE INFLATION DRAWINGS. I CAN'T EVEN CALL IT ART BECAUSE FFFFF. STOP DRAWING BLIMPY PEOPLE/FURRIES DROWNING IN THEIR OWN FAT PLZ K THNX.

Everything else's sort of peaceful. To be specific, I'm just pretty apathetic about everything that's going on right now. I think this lack of emotion is the result of the huge medication dosage, strong counseling and almost non-stop self-therapy that's been lasting for about two weeks. I keep getting strange seizures and feel dehydrated at times, maybe a side effect.
Failing classes terribly and not giving the smallest damn. Kinda wishing about being expelled.

Watched Hetalia earlier today. Surprisingly it wasn't as bad as I'd thought it would be. Very cute, but confusing. Next will probably be Code Geass, I'm in the mood for these things recently.

I don't have absolutely ANYTHING to do with my time, it's frustrating :[ So not much to update on P:

Decided to skip school this Monday to go outside, scenery-drawing. Still sick after sketching one lousy statue in the wind for 3 hours, and I'll probably stay home for a few more days, I don't feel like going anywhere.
I should do this more often, so here's to a cold spring.


I'll have to take a forced break off the Internet for a few weeks/months/I don't know how long, and I'm not sure when, so excuse me if I suddenly stop replying to journals and then return not knowing what the fuck is going on. Getting a little break for the sake of my beloved and myself, I feel like I'm doing the right thing that will solve a lot. I hope.


AAaaaaaaanyway. Do any of you artist-type people know any good inspirational music to draw to? Any genre will do, I like everything from Era to Goatwhore to Patrick Wolf to Age of Silence. I'm kinda tired of my own stuff, so any suggestions are appreciated.


I'd like to finish off with something my wonderful sister k0n3k0 drew the other day while we were pondering on Kristoph's handface's possibility of being in a pairing. APPARENTLY AN OPTION WAS FOUND LOOK HOW HAPPY HE IS.

I am suffering from pure, unadulterated boredom ): This shouldn't be happening during holiday but dude I am so bored I'm about to forget I'm not supposed to kill myself for at least 7 more years, and do it already D|

I'd go out somewhere, but my payment is on hold and I can't take a normal walk outside without needing to buy something so I'm stuck at home...Actually, scratch that, I doubt I'd go out when it's WARM outside. WARM I TELL YOU. FUCK. I loathe spring.

No idea what to write about or what to draw that isn't so OOC gay that I'm trying to get over, 256 movies and I've got nothing to watch, no computer space to install games on, ffffuuuu I feel like taking pills and force-sleeping just to pass time.